Well then... I can't say that this page has been a successful one, but I will say one thing, life happens in a hurry and we all struggle to stay afloat. Some may say "what the heck are you talking about" or "you know what, that has more truth than not" but one thing is for sure, it's a struggle, a battle, a war... We are all faced with decisions that we have to make and risks we must take to keep disorder/order within our lives. We've all encountered this. Some have faced tougher hardships than most and have come out on top, and I commend those who have, for what I know is that I have faced far less than those few and yet I feel as if I am staring at a mountain of regret and bad decisions. Yes, opportunities come and go... Yes, no decision can be an absolute, although at times it may feel like that. It's a struggle...
As I sit here reflecting on the past year, I can't say for certain what it is that I had expected out of this year, nor could I even say that there was much success for the experiences that I have gone through. It was all so... Confusing. Everything was blur. A mess. Everything was in discord. Uncomfortable... I have felt like I've lost more than I have gained, and this feeling is very unsettling. I am trying very hard to climb out of the hole that dug for myself that had been years in the making. Being the thinker that I am, everything seems so... Futile. Desolate. I am selfish. Unclean.
I still have hope... The seconds may tick away day after day. There are people out there that have come back from what seemed like a certain death to prosper in the new found respect for life. That just shows all of us that there are things in this life, this world, that are much bigger than ourselves that are being cloaked by a veil of self-centered thought and disregard for the well-being of the society that we live in. None of this may not make any sense. Just remember, WE all have a purpose. Know Hope.
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