I know it's been some time since the last time I had posted anything... Like February, jeesh!!! So I think it's about time! A new school year is upon us, along with it comes new challenges, stresses and troubles. As I am nearing the end of another milestone (college degree, I can call that a 'milestone' I hope) I can't but help to feel tired, anxious and hopeful to whatever may come in the next few months/years.
School is well, school. Same song and lyrics just with some variations in the tuning. While excited to take on the coming year and just ready to finish out with student teaching next semester, I feel somewhat burnt out so to speak. All of this schooling that I have done at the higher level for the past 7 years has taken a bit of a toll on my psyche and I feel it everywhere. I'm not as young as I used to be and I can't help but think how things would be different if I had the same mindset then as I do now. This is all a part of the learning process of life. If you're reading this and you haven't put any thought into the future, may be you should. While it may be fun every now and then to go about things all willy-nilly, you can't do that forever.
Goal #1: Commitment - To common goals and to being successful.
A new football season will begin this coming Saturday and I couldn't be more nervous about it. The team I volunteer for couldn't face more adversity than what is to come for this season. I know I never really had to worry about it that much when I played, mainly cause we never had to think about the 'what if's.' Needless to say, things were looking bleek at the start of summer camp with only 6 players showing up on any given day for camp. Knowing that your team plays 8-man football, you can imagine the stress that one would be going through wondering what would happen next. Luckily all of that has changed and I am happy to say that we finally have the numbers to give ourselves a little bit of breathing room with 12 players. While our numbers are small and our challenges are laid in front of us, there is still plenty of hope for us as a team to be successful going forward and I couldn't be happier to be a part of a great group of kids.
Goal #3: Unity - Come together as never before.
Sunday, August 26, 2012
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
Unjustful Reasoning...
I've been thinking a little about relationship as of late, not so much in way of being in one, but all the parts leading up to it. And I've become a little frustrated with some of the occurrences that have happened with the last few, I guess you call it, "dates." It's something that I've always thought was weird and just really childish in a sense and is really just uncalled for in my opinion. I may be wrong about this, but this is just how I feel about the whole thing.
Situation 1: Girl "A" I had met about 16, 17, 18 months ago. Back in September of 2010. She was a conservative, but open, girl that was a good listener and really was quite interesting to me. We had gone out on a couple of occasions with the first time meeting up for an early dinner and then a hike at a local trail that was just beautiful. That first real time that had with her was good, and really quite ideal for how I would like dates to be like. We continued to talk through texts and meeting up to go out and do things on a few more occasions, and this continued for about a month and a half. There towards the end, I was under the suspicion that she was seeing another guy, but she never really said anything to me about this. Next thing I know, she completely cut me off from communications and ended up being in a relationship with this person 2 weeks later after we had stopped talking.
Situation 2: Girl "B" I had met about 6 months ago in August 2011. Another interesting one, a personality much different from mine, very smart, but yet still intriguing. While she reminded me of a certain friend that I was very fond of, because of this, I was looking forward to what it could potentially be. We hung out a couple of times, whenever we had time to meet up. Being that we were busy college students, it was a little difficult finding time to meet and be able to talk. She was not much of a texter, while I am. It's my go to when it comes to communication, other than face to face. The times that we were together and just talking were great and very fun, and I really did try to keep contact with her throughout the semester. Before you know it, the same treatment again from this one like the first. Complete silence, disabled communications.
From these 2, and other situations like it, why is it that girls feel compelled to do this? I really don't understand it at all. With the first girl, I can understand the situation. Yeah, so what if she was seeing another guy while seeing me, not a big deal. Guess what? Guys, we do the same thing. And don't say that you don't, because everyone and their mother knows that you are lying. What I don't understand, why the secrecy? Why couldn't she just say something about it? Girl "B" it seems that I cannot find a probable cause or just reasoning for the abandonment. Was there something I did wrong? Was I suppose to talk to you everyday? Cause you said from the start you wanted to start out being friends and you said that you didn't want to be bothered in that way. Was I not suppose to take this in the literal sense? Cause it seemed like she was very serious about the standards she laid down.
I mean seriously, think about this. By today's 'standards,' is there no room for honesty? Truth? I may be different, in a sense, that I would like to hear the other side. Be honest, be truthful. I can honor that. Yes, it may hurt a little, depending on how well things are going (or think they're going), but think about how much more awkward the situation will be if you don't say a word and then meet again a few weeks or couple of months down the road. Is the awkward silence and the extra effort to avoid a person really worth the time and effort? Wouldn't thing be better off if you just talked to the person and come to an understanding? I know I would like that. I will raise my hand every time when asked that question, because I know that I would do the same. I believe we are all entitled to this. Don't you think that as well?
Situation 1: Girl "A" I had met about 16, 17, 18 months ago. Back in September of 2010. She was a conservative, but open, girl that was a good listener and really was quite interesting to me. We had gone out on a couple of occasions with the first time meeting up for an early dinner and then a hike at a local trail that was just beautiful. That first real time that had with her was good, and really quite ideal for how I would like dates to be like. We continued to talk through texts and meeting up to go out and do things on a few more occasions, and this continued for about a month and a half. There towards the end, I was under the suspicion that she was seeing another guy, but she never really said anything to me about this. Next thing I know, she completely cut me off from communications and ended up being in a relationship with this person 2 weeks later after we had stopped talking.
Situation 2: Girl "B" I had met about 6 months ago in August 2011. Another interesting one, a personality much different from mine, very smart, but yet still intriguing. While she reminded me of a certain friend that I was very fond of, because of this, I was looking forward to what it could potentially be. We hung out a couple of times, whenever we had time to meet up. Being that we were busy college students, it was a little difficult finding time to meet and be able to talk. She was not much of a texter, while I am. It's my go to when it comes to communication, other than face to face. The times that we were together and just talking were great and very fun, and I really did try to keep contact with her throughout the semester. Before you know it, the same treatment again from this one like the first. Complete silence, disabled communications.
From these 2, and other situations like it, why is it that girls feel compelled to do this? I really don't understand it at all. With the first girl, I can understand the situation. Yeah, so what if she was seeing another guy while seeing me, not a big deal. Guess what? Guys, we do the same thing. And don't say that you don't, because everyone and their mother knows that you are lying. What I don't understand, why the secrecy? Why couldn't she just say something about it? Girl "B" it seems that I cannot find a probable cause or just reasoning for the abandonment. Was there something I did wrong? Was I suppose to talk to you everyday? Cause you said from the start you wanted to start out being friends and you said that you didn't want to be bothered in that way. Was I not suppose to take this in the literal sense? Cause it seemed like she was very serious about the standards she laid down.
I mean seriously, think about this. By today's 'standards,' is there no room for honesty? Truth? I may be different, in a sense, that I would like to hear the other side. Be honest, be truthful. I can honor that. Yes, it may hurt a little, depending on how well things are going (or think they're going), but think about how much more awkward the situation will be if you don't say a word and then meet again a few weeks or couple of months down the road. Is the awkward silence and the extra effort to avoid a person really worth the time and effort? Wouldn't thing be better off if you just talked to the person and come to an understanding? I know I would like that. I will raise my hand every time when asked that question, because I know that I would do the same. I believe we are all entitled to this. Don't you think that as well?
Saturday, January 14, 2012
Friendly Friends
I will have to admit that today was a good day, in spite of the fact that I woke up 10 minutes right before I had to be at work at 8 a.m. Not exactly a good start, but that just really seem to matter much about how the day would ultimately pan out to be. Granted that the day still isn't over by the time I finish this post, but as of right now, I don't think that is going to matter. It really started last night, when I received a call from a long time friend and chatted up about random topics and went out to a steakhouse in town with my good friend from the past 4 years.
Before I go any further, there is a bit of a back story to the steakhouse. The first time I ate at this place, there was a waitress, I will have to admit, I was flirting a bit with (who hasn't done this before, especially the guys) and quite honestly was trying a little to hard to do so. And to her, I apologize for any uncomfortable moments that I may have created. But it was a little fun for something that was hoped to be a one time experience and to never see that person again. Eventually I did see her again, this time while I was at work. She needed a few supplies and it turned out that she was short about $27 and she "needed those items immediately." So what do I do? Being the nice person I am 50% of the time (lol), I spotted her that $27 just so she could have it, with the promise of repayment. Well, I guess she did try to come back a repay me the following week, but just had missed opportunities. My friend and I went back to that steakhouse last night and the bartender that was serving us was a good dude and I asked him if so-and-so was working at the time and gave him the low down on inquiry. He said "Yeah, in fact she's actually working right now. I'll go flag her down for you." So he did just that. Turns out she was so embarrassed at the fact that she completely forgot about that, she gave him $40 as an added interest to what she did actually owe me. Now, I wasn't exactly going to ask the full $27, but just only $20 to help pay for the meal, but since she did that I used it to pay the meal off and expected her to take back $7. She apparently didn't want that $7 and chased me down as soon as we left just to give that money back to me. Just some funny story for as short as it is drug out over the course of 6 months. It was just something funny that I didn't expect anything in return for my favor 6 month ago, and it was something that I had joked about going in the place that night.
Other than the fact that I had to work this morning, and showing up late due to a failure to reset my alarm. Oops. It was a good day, I felt like I accomplished quite a bit in what time I had there. But what I really appreciated was going to Chipotle with a couple of friends and just chat it up about completely random things. That is one thing I do like about my certain group of friends where we can just talk about anything with no point to it all and just have fun with it. To me, it just seems like conversations that are completely pointed and one dimensional are just boring, although, I do not mind them at all, I just feel that there is a time and a place for them.
I really don't say this enough, but I really do appreciate all the friends I have. All the time I can get with them is valued whether it be in person or just a simple phone call. I know this sounds simple, but appreciate what you have. Sure it may seem like you waste some days here and there, but think about what you did that day and who you interacted with in that day. And then think about whether or not it was really that bad and what could be worse than what you did. Things really are not that bad, it is what you take from the little things that can make your day.
Before I go any further, there is a bit of a back story to the steakhouse. The first time I ate at this place, there was a waitress, I will have to admit, I was flirting a bit with (who hasn't done this before, especially the guys) and quite honestly was trying a little to hard to do so. And to her, I apologize for any uncomfortable moments that I may have created. But it was a little fun for something that was hoped to be a one time experience and to never see that person again. Eventually I did see her again, this time while I was at work. She needed a few supplies and it turned out that she was short about $27 and she "needed those items immediately." So what do I do? Being the nice person I am 50% of the time (lol), I spotted her that $27 just so she could have it, with the promise of repayment. Well, I guess she did try to come back a repay me the following week, but just had missed opportunities. My friend and I went back to that steakhouse last night and the bartender that was serving us was a good dude and I asked him if so-and-so was working at the time and gave him the low down on inquiry. He said "Yeah, in fact she's actually working right now. I'll go flag her down for you." So he did just that. Turns out she was so embarrassed at the fact that she completely forgot about that, she gave him $40 as an added interest to what she did actually owe me. Now, I wasn't exactly going to ask the full $27, but just only $20 to help pay for the meal, but since she did that I used it to pay the meal off and expected her to take back $7. She apparently didn't want that $7 and chased me down as soon as we left just to give that money back to me. Just some funny story for as short as it is drug out over the course of 6 months. It was just something funny that I didn't expect anything in return for my favor 6 month ago, and it was something that I had joked about going in the place that night.
Other than the fact that I had to work this morning, and showing up late due to a failure to reset my alarm. Oops. It was a good day, I felt like I accomplished quite a bit in what time I had there. But what I really appreciated was going to Chipotle with a couple of friends and just chat it up about completely random things. That is one thing I do like about my certain group of friends where we can just talk about anything with no point to it all and just have fun with it. To me, it just seems like conversations that are completely pointed and one dimensional are just boring, although, I do not mind them at all, I just feel that there is a time and a place for them.
I really don't say this enough, but I really do appreciate all the friends I have. All the time I can get with them is valued whether it be in person or just a simple phone call. I know this sounds simple, but appreciate what you have. Sure it may seem like you waste some days here and there, but think about what you did that day and who you interacted with in that day. And then think about whether or not it was really that bad and what could be worse than what you did. Things really are not that bad, it is what you take from the little things that can make your day.
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
2012 So far...
2012, sadly enough, didn't start for me until 8:00 A.M. Jan 1. Is that lame? Some of my friends were harping on me for not partaking in any of the festivities on New Year's Eve, but I just wasn't feeling it and just was not in the mood. I did spend most of the day cleaning and reorganizing my room. As I was doing so, I did do quite a bit of thinking and reflecting what kind of 2011 I had. Needless to say, it wasn't the greatest... I found myself to be contempt leaning towards frustration and anger. And let's just face it, that's just not a healthy way to live. I know that this is something that we all experience at one point in our lives, and that's okay. I just found it weird that I was stuck there for the whole year and a couple of months leading up to 2011. It was one of those 'What am I doing?' moments, something that I expected to occur while obtaining my first degree in the first couple of years of college, but it just never came. What was the cause of this? I did notice that I was stressing the little things more and more. This was something that I never really did or did on a frequent basis. This subsequently lead to being more short tempered, less patient with others and just overall confused about what I wanted and expected from my decision making. While all this was happening with me, I was also returning to school. What a decision... While I am very happy with the decision of returning, at the time upon return, it was difficult. Difficult to return to school form, organizing thoughts and work and just keeping my personality in check. Often I did question myself about this decision in there early stages of the semester, but as it progressed, things did get better. I found myself to be more focused and more worried about given tasks that were productive and constructive. As I was reflecting, I realize that this is something that I needed, an 'Ah-ha!' moment. A something to do, whether it may be cleaning and organizing, mowing the lawn, working a part-time job, reading a book, etc.; whatever it may be, I needed something to keep my mind on the straight and narrow. Having nothing to do or taking your time and using it in a deconstructive way can ultimately lead you be crazy or just a bitter person to be around. Going into this winter break, experiencing the year change, looking forward to the new semester and thinking back about this past year made it seem as if a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. And I have never felt better about myself since this realization. I am really looking forward to what this coming year has.
Extra: I found cleaning to be therapeutic. Maybe it could work for you! I find myself thinking back on things and having realizations while cleaning. Kind of weird when you think about it, being this is one thing that people tend to groan about.
Extra: I found cleaning to be therapeutic. Maybe it could work for you! I find myself thinking back on things and having realizations while cleaning. Kind of weird when you think about it, being this is one thing that people tend to groan about.
Opening Statements
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